Mirror Mirror on the Wall Who's the Fairest of Them All: The Fakery is Real Ya Dig?

Transparency is what most of us want in dealing with others; no matter the situation, you expect people's intentions to be as clear as possible. But, in actuality most people are far from transparent even as they see their own reflection in the mirror.... That reflection just might not be the image others see......Oh Jayna don't be so cynical...you might say...Or, that sounds like some emotional BS...LOL...maybe so, but wouldn't it be great if people told you their true intentions and their true selves upon introduction,,Like..How you doing...My name is Jayna...and I don't like liver or I really hate sharing my toys...My biggest pet peeve is people that lie all the time, as if telling the truth is so hard...ughhh...I consider liers an insult to my intelligence, especially when my gut tells me otherwise.  Nevertheless...I guess it's like my Granny would always say "...some people"  For me though, I try to be as transparent as possible in relationships/situations because I know what being lied to or taken advantage of feels like....Ya dig?

There was a time in college (Pre-google..I think) when I was a victim of a crime, A man I was dating was living on campus under an assumed identity.. It wasn't until after he had disappeared, that I learned the whole story from the campus police and Bank of America...It was all laid before me..because they thought I was involved... And I was, needless to say, devastated, embarrassed, hurt, mad...blah, blah, blah   He presented himself in such a manner that he had EVERYONE fooled.

Then there was the time..When I found out my first adult boyfriend (I was only 16..but I thought I was grown), the first guy I said the three most mis-used words on the planet to..."I Love You"   was indeed married.  OMG...get this, His wife happened to get her hair done at a well-known beauty shop and well, after her appointment one day he went inside to pay and, well...my friend told me...I was a side-chick and didn't even know it...what a sad situation...which could have all been avoided If I had known he was married.

There's more, but hey, we all have our own stories to tell or...NOT

I'm saying all of this to simply say..... These days it truly behooves us to do our homework before allowing others to enter our safety zone...  If when dealing with someone if the same things have continuously happened to others in their path...that...might be a little suspect...IJS

I used to consider giving people the benefit of the doubt..something to be proud of.or that there are more good people in this world than bad...but baby when you are met with a bad apple or two, you start loosing hope in people...period.

There's an analogy here somewhere,which I'll probably think of later, but right now...I'm processing this flow...

I'll be the first to admit, I've been known to be too trusting at times in the truest sense of it all....or, like someone else said "you are too nice".....But hey, we all have our shortcomings...Mine usually involve this old heart of mine that I just can't seem to stop wearing on my sleeve.

LOL...It's funny how you can tell someone has been through something...because they start speaking philosophically as if they've instantly become PhD's in Situationships and Relationships...LMBO Oh, but I digress

So, where do we go from here?  "All that I can say...Do do do do do do doooooo" LMBO Keep it pushing, stay focused and just be the best you, you know how to be...I still believe love conquers all.

That's my two cents...

Like I ALWAYS say...Life is too short and tomorrow is not promised, make sure the ones you love know that you know that they are loved.

Thank you for your continued love and support...

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A House Is Not a Home: Where Are My Keys?

One of my favorite Luther Vandross Songs is "A House is Not a Home".  There's this metaphoric presentation of the word "House" which is not necessarily talking about 4 walls or a place to lay your head. And, there's no denying Luther's voice just puts you in that frame of mind of wanting a love that makes the house a home. Not just someone to love, but someone to love you back for all the right reasons; not the superficial ones.

Which brings me to this burning question, how do we find the keys to a happy loving home? I mean social media will have you so messed up looking for answers...everyone claims to have the keys...I see videos of men bashing men, /women bashing men, men bashing women and women bashing women all for likes and follows...No one is who they claim to be..The simple question "Are you single?" which to me only has one of two answers,,,yes or no, seems to now have all kinds of grey areas...LOL  Just tonight I was talking with a friend and he worries about going into his 40's without a woman on his arms.  But he also shared that he spent some time hurting woman on purpose because failed relationships in his past hurt him badly. Sadly, he's not the only one I've heard this from...

Whenever I see posts from people celebrating anniversaries or just acknowledging their significant others I always wonder how did they find their keys? You know the keys to open up your house to make it a home....

While I'm not going to claim that I have the keys (otherwise I probably would have written a book...) I do know what keys do not fit my locks (cuz I tried to wiggle them all kinds of ways and they just did not fit).  I'm thinking that I may have stumbled upon one of the keys:

Learn from your mistakes ( in this context...know what keys do not fit the lock). Those mistakes had to be made in order to get to the right one...the right key.

OK, so  maybe the real key is knowing that none of the keys fit at first...when the right one comes along, It just might have to be filed down just a little in the right places to make it ready to fit the lock.

That's my two cents from the hopeless romantic a few days before "V" day...

Like I ALWAYS say...Life is too short and tomorrow is not promised, make sure the ones you love know that you know that they are loved.

Thank you for your continued love and support...

For updates and other news, check me out at C-TownRecords and also Reverbnation.

Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

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Do You Love What You Feel?: Don't Wait Up For The Change Up!!

My Thoughts on a Wednesday...

What drives you, gets you out of bed, are your reasons for doing what you do? Is it the cliche' "paper chase"? Is it Love or a Fantasy? Tonight I was asking myself that same thing...after receiving some news..."What am I doing this for?" Is it for fame and fortune? While music has been a part of my life since (and even before) I can remember,  it was something that was mine...it was personal.  It wasn't until I was literally drug into a studio that I realized this thing is meant to be...now, I have to constantly remind myself the reason why I walked through those doors in the first place...it was simply because of Love...with no expectations other than Love returned.

Can you say that you love your dream so much that you'd go out on a limb for it....or...step out on faith for it?   So in the name of Love..I believed, I sacrificed, I allowed myself to fall in love...say what you will, I did all of that.  Today though for some the definitions of love have changed and are different...but for me it's still the same....LOVE...

This love affair (if you will) with music has added a bunch of words to my musical resume like magazines, radio airplay, interviews, blogs, playlists, charts, videos, photo shoots, fans, stats blah blah blah...all new to me ( in some sense) but a blessing nonetheless because my reward has been love...what I give and what I receive

It is with that Love in mind that I keep pushing and keep striving to meet all of my goals because my motive has not changed from Day One...

Now Don't wait up for the change up...cuz baby...there's too much of that going around for the kid...there have been too many years and tears for me to try and change now...

Thank you for your love and support...We have a lot more work to do!!

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Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

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Relax Relate Release: Learning your triggers can set you free!!

So once again, It's been a minute since I've written, but I thought I had a good excuse...I've been busy dealing with life and juggling a new job and trying my best not to neglect my music.  But then yeseterday it dawned on me...these entries are my story, my life and there just has to be time to share it...so, I usually think long and hard about what to share...on today though..I just don't know where to start, there's just sooooo much....

I'm excited about each new thing happening with my career and as I get closer and closer to accomplishing more goals, It's clear to me now more than ever...EVERYTHING happens for a reason and more times than not, when things do happen they do not end-up how we thought they would...that..my friends is simply because "we" are not in control.  If I didn't learn anything in 2017, I learned how to identify when enough is enough and to understand there are triggers to behaviors that can cause you to question your own abilities, sanity, and emotions when it comes to dealing with feeling out of control. For me those triggers seem to be centered around people who do and say things that seem to question my worth, loyalty, intentions and integrity.  You know that saying "You can't change anyone you can only change how you react to them"...Or something like that...LOL

Well, let me tell you, a whole lot of changes have been made with your girl.  I had to take a couple "Ls" and if that wasn't enough..for some strange reason, I felt as If I needed to blame myself for the things that were happening to me.  Anyway, I share a lot with those that connect with me, but there are some VERY personal matters that I hold inside (we all do) that if I were to say them out loud would make me feel too transparent and all vulnerable and things..While I'm not ready to air-out the specifics of my dirty laundry...I will say that I am no longer holding myself accountable for things I cannot control...

Anyway, My daughter recently came home for a quick visit and somehow we got on the topic of relationships and she was seeking my advice, but as she poured out her heart to me, she was explaining the very same issues I was dealing with that I was too embarrassed to put a voice to.  As she was talking, it took every ounce of strength not to break down right in front of her (but to do that would mean that I hadn't left that mess in 2017)...I have experienced some things, I thought I would never have to go through.....But the last 4 years or so, changed all of that.  Anyway, I realized at that moment...we go through things...but often times the things we experience can help someone else to not have to go down that road (if you will)....So, well I opened uppppp to her that night...I felt like it was important for her to hear that there is life after all of that stuff and her,my own or any one's happiness/self worth DOES NOT live in the hands/actions of others...we each hold that responsibility to discover that wihin ourself...Thus...everything happens for a reason.

The morning following my "purge" if you will, I realized that we must weather the storm to see that rainbow waiting on the other side...once we understand the reason for the storm is to live, learn and lend our life...Yesssss!!!~!

Relax, Relate...and Release!!!

For updates and other news, check me out at C-TownRecords and also Reverbnation.

Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

DOWNLOAD: If you like it, buy it. For less than a cup of coffee/pack of gum/bottle of water - get my new single "That's My Song" https://itunes.apple.com/…/thats-my-song-feat…/id1260382849…

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