Do You Love What You Feel?: Don't Wait Up For The Change Up!!

My Thoughts on a Wednesday...

What drives you, gets you out of bed, are your reasons for doing what you do? Is it the cliche' "paper chase"? Is it Love or a Fantasy? Tonight I was asking myself that same thing...after receiving some news..."What am I doing this for?" Is it for fame and fortune? While music has been a part of my life since (and even before) I can remember,  it was something that was mine...it was personal.  It wasn't until I was literally drug into a studio that I realized this thing is meant to be...now, I have to constantly remind myself the reason why I walked through those doors in the first place...it was simply because of Love...with no expectations other than Love returned.

Can you say that you love your dream so much that you'd go out on a limb for it....or...step out on faith for it?   So in the name of Love..I believed, I sacrificed, I allowed myself to fall in love...say what you will, I did all of that.  Today though for some the definitions of love have changed and are different...but for me it's still the same....LOVE...

This love affair (if you will) with music has added a bunch of words to my musical resume like magazines, radio airplay, interviews, blogs, playlists, charts, videos, photo shoots, fans, stats blah blah blah...all new to me ( in some sense) but a blessing nonetheless because my reward has been love...what I give and what I receive

It is with that Love in mind that I keep pushing and keep striving to meet all of my goals because my motive has not changed from Day One...

Now Don't wait up for the change up...cuz baby...there's too much of that going around for the kid...there have been too many years and tears for me to try and change now...

Thank you for your love and support...We have a lot more work to do!!

For updates and other news, check me out at C-TownRecords and also Reverbnation.

Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

DOWNLOAD: If you like it, buy it. For less than a cup of coffee/pack of gum/bottle of water - get my new single "That's My Song" https://itunes.apple.com/…/thats-my-song-feat…/id1260382849…

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Relax Relate Release: Learning your triggers can set you free!!

So once again, It's been a minute since I've written, but I thought I had a good excuse...I've been busy dealing with life and juggling a new job and trying my best not to neglect my music.  But then yeseterday it dawned on me...these entries are my story, my life and there just has to be time to share it...so, I usually think long and hard about what to share...on today though..I just don't know where to start, there's just sooooo much....

I'm excited about each new thing happening with my career and as I get closer and closer to accomplishing more goals, It's clear to me now more than ever...EVERYTHING happens for a reason and more times than not, when things do happen they do not end-up how we thought they would...that..my friends is simply because "we" are not in control.  If I didn't learn anything in 2017, I learned how to identify when enough is enough and to understand there are triggers to behaviors that can cause you to question your own abilities, sanity, and emotions when it comes to dealing with feeling out of control. For me those triggers seem to be centered around people who do and say things that seem to question my worth, loyalty, intentions and integrity.  You know that saying "You can't change anyone you can only change how you react to them"...Or something like that...LOL

Well, let me tell you, a whole lot of changes have been made with your girl.  I had to take a couple "Ls" and if that wasn't enough..for some strange reason, I felt as If I needed to blame myself for the things that were happening to me.  Anyway, I share a lot with those that connect with me, but there are some VERY personal matters that I hold inside (we all do) that if I were to say them out loud would make me feel too transparent and all vulnerable and things..While I'm not ready to air-out the specifics of my dirty laundry...I will say that I am no longer holding myself accountable for things I cannot control...

Anyway, My daughter recently came home for a quick visit and somehow we got on the topic of relationships and she was seeking my advice, but as she poured out her heart to me, she was explaining the very same issues I was dealing with that I was too embarrassed to put a voice to.  As she was talking, it took every ounce of strength not to break down right in front of her (but to do that would mean that I hadn't left that mess in 2017)...I have experienced some things, I thought I would never have to go through.....But the last 4 years or so, changed all of that.  Anyway, I realized at that moment...we go through things...but often times the things we experience can help someone else to not have to go down that road (if you will)....So, well I opened uppppp to her that night...I felt like it was important for her to hear that there is life after all of that stuff and her,my own or any one's happiness/self worth DOES NOT live in the hands/actions of others...we each hold that responsibility to discover that wihin ourself...Thus...everything happens for a reason.

The morning following my "purge" if you will, I realized that we must weather the storm to see that rainbow waiting on the other side...once we understand the reason for the storm is to live, learn and lend our life...Yesssss!!!~!

Relax, Relate...and Release!!!

For updates and other news, check me out at C-TownRecords and also Reverbnation.

Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

DOWNLOAD: If you like it, buy it. For less than a cup of coffee/pack of gum/bottle of water - get my new single "That's My Song" https://itunes.apple.com/…/thats-my-song-feat…/id1260382849…

STREAM: Add me to your Playlists (Spotify/Pandora/Tidal) https://open.spotify.com/artist/3M06iWxDM54IajGR6sHg25

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REQUEST: Call/email/visit the website of your local Radio Stations and request "That's My Song Ft. Ken'Yaun by Jayna Blackwell

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Public Apology: "My Truth" is what I'm Living in

About a week or so ago, a friend of mine called and asked how I was doing and I matter-of-factually said "I am great" and started rattling off all of the great things that are happening in my music career.  After I finished, he said, "all of those things are wonderful Jayna, but how are you?" and then he texted me the picture above.  He said those eyes say something other than "I am great" at first, I  defended my pic, cuz, I like it and yah know I got some compliments about it...LOL... Anyway... I really thank God for friends like this because they are the ones that seem to know us better than we know ourselves. You know those people when you see them you just can't pretend with anymore because they know the real you?  So 2 1/2 hours later, I hung up the phone feeling overwhelmed with emotion and frustration because I am going through the process of closing another chapter in my life. and, I knew I had lied to my friend when I said "It's good though".  Later that day, Someone else told me to "Stop blaming myself for my mistakes and failed relationships"

Which leads me to this burning desire to make this Public Apology.  You see, my heart and my mind have raged an all out war against each other, which almost had me renting a room in the "sunken place" I was trying my hardest to show strength and to prove that Boss Lady's don't show emotions and feelings and these things that I have tucked away inside have not somehow shown in my eyes (the windows to my soul)... While the details of my fight are extremely personal, I do realize now that my strength does not lie inside of someone else.

Now I may be guilty of accepting (or overlooking) things because I feared the alternative, I do know that I have no control over the actions and choices of others...and even-more-so It is not my fault.

So, here it goes...Jayna Blackwell...I apologize - I am sorry for blaming me, myself and I!!!

Yes, the desire to apologize to myself had taken over... and for quite sometime I just knew somehow my career/my heart/my love/my choices were to blame... Yeah, I know...some of you were expecting something else....

BUT

For anyone else out there that feels as if the toxic situation or people in your life are that way because of something you did,  you couldn't be further from the truth.

Now, there's a lot going on in our world today...Natural disasters/Terrorist shootings/Madness in the White House, etc.....But, what I know right now today is true it was true yesterday, last week and will be true tomorrow and all of the other tomorrow's after that...."Tomorrow is not promised to any of us" and life is just too short to go through it wasting time not living in our truths.  Be true to yourself and those in your life.  Let everyone you care about know how you feel...If tomorrow never comes for you or them....You both will know the real authentic truth.

I Love You and that is as real as it gets!!!   Thank you for your love and support!!!

For updates and other news, check me out at C-TownRecords and also Reverbnation.

Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

DOWNLOAD: If you like it, buy it. For less than a cup of coffee/pack of gum/bottle of water - get my new single "That's My Song" https://itunes.apple.com/…/thats-my-song-feat…/id1260382849…

STREAM: Add me to your Playlists (Spotify/Pandora/Tidal) https://open.spotify.com/artist/3M06iWxDM54IajGR6sHg25

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Know the Story B4 The Glory: On The Grind

I know, I know, It's been a while...well my friends I've had my nose to the grind...LOL...charge that to my head and not my heart...

For those of you that may not know, I am an Indie Recording Artist. While I am in the midst of a worldwide distsributuion campaign with the labels I am affiliated with, I have been blessed to have the support of an active team that believes in the success of this project and to be welcomed time and time again on radio stations and blog sites in support of our efforts. But, I must say if you think that all it took for me was to go into the studio and record music and then put it out, you are gravely mistaken.

LOL...this reminds me of a conversation I had once with a friend; she said that daily grunt work is for your team.  Well, My friend could'nt be more wrong.  There have been (and still are) days that I get up at 4am to record radio drops/prepare for interviews/promote and whatever else that needs to be done. I believe my team will only work as hard as I do, and baby, I do not take a day off.  I agreed to do an interview on Christmas day...I thought for a minute, that's a holiday, but then, I feel like what better day (while surrounded by family) to show the importance of the grind. The list of people that believe in me and the project is growing and there is no way I want to let them down.

You know that saying "Hard work pays off"  ...I am so rich in love and support.,,,Thank You!!

For updates and other news, check me out at C-TownRecords and also Reverbnation.

Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

DOWNLOAD: If you like it, buy it. For less than a cup of coffee/pack of gum/bottle of water - get my new single "That's My Song" https://itunes.apple.com/…/thats-my-song-feat…/id1260382849…

STREAM: Add me to your Playlists (Spotify/Pandora/Tidal) https://open.spotify.com/artist/3M06iWxDM54IajGR6sHg25

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REQUEST: Call/email/visit the website of your local Radio Stations and request "That's My Song Ft. Ken'Yaun by Jayna Blackwell

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I am Officially on My First World-wide Tour: On The Radio (radio radio radio) - Grinding it out

During a recent interview someone asked "Are you on tour?" and I thought about it and I said "Yes" I am on my very first Worldwide Tour (virtually that is). During my "Worldwide Radio Tour" I have had stops in New York, Atlanta, Texas, Tennessee, Florida, California and even Nigeria and the UK to name a few; with plans for many more locations and stops along the way. The most stops I've had in one day have been three (so far) but I wouldn't change this part for nothing.

The other day my 2 youngest surprised me with a very special note...

So yeah...I'm gonna keep on grinding it out...'

For my entire tour schedule and other news, check me out at C-TownRecords and also Reverbnation.

Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

DOWNLOAD: If you like it, buy it. For less than a cup of coffee/pack of gum/bottle of water - get my new single "That's My Song" https://itunes.apple.com/…/thats-my-song-feat…/id1260382849…

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You Best Believe: "Coming From Where I'm From"

Recently, I was watching one of my favorite movies "Love Jones" ..  I was thinking about when Darius said..'I don't have all the answers, just the questions"... So, that got me thinking about the here and the right now...knowing the questions allows you to prepare the answer, to be ahead of the game if you will.  At this very moment I am supporting the release of my new single "That's My Song Ft. Ken'Yaun" by C-Town Records and living the ups and downs of life; a kinda metamorphasis, but yet in the midst of the excitement there is yet work to be done. I'll be the first to say I'm not perfect and make mistakes. But like I always say, the real test is how you recover.

Recently I did an interview where I was asked "Do you still have that brush you used to sing into as a little girl?" My response was "...No, because I never thought I'd be here" Yes, I dreamed about this , but it just didn't magically happen, it was work and dedication that got me here; and most importantly the love and support of my family and friends. There were times I wanted to quit, but they were right there pushing me...sometimes literally...LMBO

I was born in Youngstown Ohio and spent some years in Cleveland and a few surrounding suburbs. we then moved to Oakland..My Jr. high music class was where I spent most of my time learning music and dreaming of the "one-day", but even though, my Mom loved music and had an extensive album collection, I was too afraid to tell here I wanted to sing professionally. I used to take the bus to Berkeley and hang out at Leopold's record store all the time.   I can go on...I do have a story to tell...but this entry is just not big enough...LMBO

Nevertheless....Your love and support is what drives me and that support for artists like me comes in many ways:

DOWNLOAD: If you like it, buy it. For less than a cup of coffee/pack of gum/bottle of water - get my new single "That's My Song" https://itunes.apple.com/…/thats-my-song-feat…/id1260382849…

STREAM: Add me to your Playlists (Spotify/Pandora/Tidal) https://open.spotify.com/artist/3M06iWxDM54IajGR6sHg25

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REQUEST: Call/email/visit the website of your local Radio Stations and request "That's My Song Ft. Ken'Yaun by Jayna Blackwell

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It Was all a Dream: I did read Word-Up Magazine

Last night (or this morning) I dreamt the same dream I've dreamt since I can remember, my songs were playing on the radio and I go crazy when I hear it and then I end up singing on a big stage with lights everywhere in front of a crowd of people...but then I realize....those things have and are actually happening. The first time I heard my song on the radio, I acted a fool at the .99 store in Oakland.....and I have sung on many stages... LMBO

One of my dear friends and I were talking about living a dream yesterday...My friends...It got a little emotional for me thinking that all of the things I thought were impossible as a child are actually a reality because of hard work and dedication ...THIS was all a dream (I used to read "Word-Up" magazine) and now it has manifested.... Dream Big..you just never know.

Today my reality is yesterday's dream... Today...I'm so blessed to have your love and support!! I've learned some lessons in this game...some the hard way but I'm still grinding still pushing and building relationships. One thing is clear today, people will be people and I can only be me; not perfect, I make mistakes, I may not get it right all the time. But my heart is true to this...it has been since DAY ONE....yes I think with my heart and not my head at times BUT I'm still living and learning...I'm just Jayna Blackwell (a dreamer) and that is as REAL as it gets. Peace and Love!

Be a part of the movement...we need your support in bringing back that real R&B and Hip-Hop we love and understand.... You with me?

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